i have this weakness. I tend to avoid the person i am interested in. maybe it’s because it’s easier to like the person from a distance. i don’t like confrontations. be it face to face or even through text on instant messenger or mobile. that’s one of the reasons why i dislike cold calling people for appointments. i don’t know how and where to start.
getting mind blocked again. and this time, i don’t know how to break free. i need a breakthrough yet again. but at the rate i am going, how do i see the sunshine? i’m getting distracted every day with all the things that are running through my mind.
firstly, productions. secondly, servicing. thirdly, it’s her. i know i should focus first and foremost on productions and on servicing and to forget about everything else. therein lies the problem. i cannot seem to separate my thought processes. for all the compartmentalisation i keep harping on, i cannot for the life of me separate work from personal life. i am trying. but the more i try, the harder it seems to get.
it’s yet another reason i am avoiding her. this way, i hope to let whatever feelings just die down. yet another reason that i am avoiding her is that this way, i don’t have to face the truth that it’s impossible between us. it’s always easier to dream than to face reality.
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