just woke up. feeling so much better than last night. jem and i were talking about blogs yesterday. i told him i’m thinking of closing down my blog. it’s hard enough trying to put my thoughts into words. and it’s getting harder to avoid playing to the crowds. i suddenly have this feeling that my blog is no longer my blog. i constantly have to check myself. i mean yes, it’s only been a few days that there’ve been new people that i just got to know who’s reading this blog. but considering how much i often update, it’s really getting to me on a whole new level.
i don’t censor myself. but i am checking myself. i have to make sure that whatever i write about people are ‘facts’ lest i ’start’ a whole new round of scandals. speaking of scandals, i have to clear something up.
2 weeks ago, jem never mentioned a single word of a certain someone being hawt. in case the hawt chick is still pissed with her brudders, i don’t think any of them knew it 2 weeks ago. i’m not trying to make myself appear all knowledgable or anything… but usually, when it comes to getting interested in anyone, i’m usually one of the persons jem would share it with.
maybe because we went through a lot of similar shit together, or just because we know each other for a long time, or maybe… just maybe, we kind of share similar tastes. but anyway, 2 weeks ago, jem was calling hawt chick a bitch. actually he didn’t call her a bitch. he just said she’s from mcm and he said it with that tone.
hahaha. i remember seeing hawt chick in the office and listening to her sing… i turned to jem and said “wow fuck man. she’s hawt. and she had such great vocals…” and jem turning to me and saying “fuck lah bro. she’s from mcm. she’ll bite. and she’ll prolly look down on you or something like that…” (not the exact words. and fuck me if that was even what he was thinking. it all took place a while back so yeah. don’t quote me on this.)
anyway, cut long story short… i think he only got interested in her during the camp cause he saw she was different from other mass commers. fuck. i think i’m a little bit intrigued as well. but my bro has called dibs so yeah. i was too slow. hahahaha!
by the way… don’t trust me on this entry. remember i just woke up. and i still have caffeine in my system so take everything i said with a pinch of salt. but fuck lah. she’s hawt. and she’s fucking interesting can? and great vocals. jem if you ain’t going to make a fucking move soon…
i like people i can communicate with. once i find people i can communicate intelligently with, hah. i will be a fucking talkative bastard. but if i can’t find any common grounds to talk with someone, i’ll just shutup. no point wasting my breath on someone who won’t be able to have an intelligent conversation with me. so far, the only person i could find who i can actually have an intelligent conversation with is jem. that’s why nnm called him fgb.
the next person is nnm himself. but it’s all a recent thingy so no idea if he really is that smart. hahaha! i mean yeah i call him smartypanty but that was in jest. he got to prove himself smarter than that. hahaha! let’s see… other than these 2… the next person would be hawt chick. i mean, those few mins yesterday at the office was enough to see the other side of her. i foresee myself having more intelligent conversations with her.
the rest of the people i talk to… i don’t know if you can see it. but i’d either talk down to you guys, or just talk about mundane stuffs. i don’t know how else to talk to you guys. the funny one… well. we have a common ground in WoW but that’s it i guess. with the sexy one… we talk about music and i don’t know. general shit online i think. with the chio one, i have just been teasing her and calling her chio one in her face… hahaha! damn she blushes prettily. never got a chance to talk with the cute one. oh wells. it’s only fgb and nnm that i actually can talk more indepth stuffs. why only guys.
good thing i love women too much to turn gay. hahahaha!
so, back to my question. should i close this blog? i have several secret blogging space. hah. only person who’d be able to find them even without me telling would be fgb. and that is why he’s the fgb. oh. and fgb doesn’t stand for fucking gay boy. just thought to get it clear. like what nm said, fgb’s powerbook seemed to talk to him and i agree. fgb taught me last night how to talk to my computer and the net on a whole new level. hahaha! hawt chick, that’s how i got your msn. so yeah. do leave a comment if you want me to close or what not. it makes me feel appreciated people are reading and leaving comments.
please do not change your nicks around or whatever nonsense. i don’t like that. my blog is a place for people to generally post intelligent stuffs. not for people to play around with nicks and whatnots. choose a certain nick and just stick to it. easier for me to know who’s commenting as well. i don’t want to anyhow block IPs… oh and my anti-spam system doesn’t like it too…