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this post is the start of a new category. this category will be called reflections. have not decided on whether or not it will be a daily or a weekly thing but it will be a regular feature.

will also be cleaning up the blog. have decided to do something much more constructive and positive. i have been blogging for a number of years now but it seems that the quality of the posts haven’t really been maturing with the years. i will be starting a couple of new blogs as well. one will be more of my private and personal matters which will be closed to the public. basically, i just need to let off steam sometimes. blogging is a form of therapy for me but the way i have been blogging… however, when the things i have been blogging about becomes a matter which is discussed outside the blog, i feel that’s the final straw.

something happened a few weeks ago. initially it was some personal matter which slowly grew to include a whole bunch of other people. it was my fault though. glad to say the matter has blown over somewhat and while the dust is slowly settling, i’m still a little bit rankled at how it’s sort of spread. it’s kind of made me a little bit more wary of what i say and to whom i say things to. all the more i dare not trust people. so what i do now is to remember to keep my mouth shut.

the next blog is where i will put up the creative pieces i have done. whether it’s poetry or songs or demos or if it’s the upcoming fantasy fiction short story i am writing, it will be up there. this blog has pretty much become a collection of stuffs and it’s growing daily and i’m finding it hard to even design a theme for this blog because basically, this blog has no theme.

so basically, in the upcoming weeks of january, there will be something of a reboot coming to this site. it’s actually pretty scary. i kind of forgotten the basics of CSS designs and all my webdesign stuffs. i will need to refresh myself once again and this time, i hope i do a better job. don’t be surprised though if i end up reusing this theme.

on to tonight’s reflections.

basically, in my line of work, attitude determines our altitude. how hungry we are for our goals will actually manifest itself as how focused we are to achieving it. if we truly are hungry, we will find ways and means to achieve our goals. sadly, it seems i am not that hungry yet. although i know i want to hit my goal desperately, there’s still something blocking me.

it used to be a problem of my mindsets. however, now that the mind blocks are slowly being broken down, it comes down to habit as well as existing mind sets. for example, i’m used to having my saturdays and sundays off. i still remember 2 months back when i wasn’t involved in road shows. i would just stay home on those saturdays and sundays. i would only come to the office on saturday because of the focus meeting and if i have some urgent appointments. otherwise, if there are no appointments, i’d just take the day off.

even now, when i have my roadshows, i tend to get distracted easily on saturdays and sundays. i will need to overcome all these little problems asap. another problem i have is that i love to procrastinate a lot. and i need to get rid of it asap too!