to the august babies… Nigel, Rin and Haro. happy birthday!
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closing another chapter in the story that is my life. i’m not exactly sure how the chapter is going to end but it is ending. good times and bad. friends i have made. i wonder if we would still be keeping in contact? oh well. looking forward to a brave new chapter. i have no idea how this new chapter is going start. i don’t even have an idea of where to begin…
i want to achieve Fast Track by end April. however, i have a small problem. i have no motivation. everyday, i have just been procrastinating and watching time past me by.
that’s not how i envisioned myself this year. i had so many goals to achieve. Fast Track, MYC, A&H, QC and even QCE. however, with each passing day, all i am doing is making excuses for myself. i need to snap out of this. i have been opening cases but to be brutally honest with myself, it’s not the number of cases opened that counts. it’s the number of cases closed!
it’s already the 27th of February. 1 more day before it’s March. i will run the race. i have to.
Tags: achieve, dreams, goals, procrastination, race
my appointment got canceled. yet again. thanks buddy. you just made my day.
so anyway, i decided to drink a bit more of the green stuff. and while drinking, something just hit me. people can’t shut the fuck up. try telling a friend something private and WHAM! it will come back to bite you in the ass. seriously. i have been the recipient of it before. who hasn’t?
what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger. and it makes you smarter. or for my case, it just makes me goddamn paranoid. what happened in my case was somehow, i stupidly told someone i liked her. apparently she didn’t feel the same way and she thought it’d be funny to tell her friends, etc1.
anyway, long story short, everyone soon found out. but the best part was, i didn’t know everyone knew. and everything i did was up for scrutiny. during a valentine’s day, i remember buying her a bear. a Forever Friend bear. one that cost me about $250. heh. i remember the price because that was the last time i ever got one of those. i mean, seriously. i thought it was a romantic gesture. experience taught me it was a fucking dumb move.
i don’t remember what happened exactly but it seemed that she smsed a friend of hers saying that the bear was a stupid gesture. luckily the friend showed me the sms. after showing it to a bunch of other people of course. and there are a few other incidents. not going to put them up here. but suffice it to say, i’m wary of getting interested/attracted/liking/whateverthefuckyoucallit in someone now. it’s like, considering what’s been happening so far, it’s probably another invitation to be ridiculed.
heh. see? whoever says being drunk isn’t good probably hasn’t been drunk on absinthe. it opens up the fucking universe dude!
- this happened many years back. but it appears i haven’t learnt my lesson. obviously.[↩]
Tags: absinthe, bastards, dumb, experience, friends, Valentine's
one of my favourite quotes comes from xkcd, a webcomic i frequent.
and it’s true. it’s not enough to want something. you actually have to get off your butt to do something about it. i’ve always been a passive guy. but lately, there’s just something which clicked inside my brain telling me that it’s time for me to do something.
i have a goal this year. i want to hit Fast Track. on top of that, i want to hit Macau and also MYC Beijing as well as this year’s A&H challenge. last year, i wanted to hit A&H as well as my PPS. couldn’t hit it due to poor planning. all i thought of was “i want to hit” but i didn’t think of the “how” and the “by when”.
this year, it’s different. having learnt from a number of mentors, i am determined to make my mark this year. where there is a will, there will always be a way. as long as you desperately want something and actually are doing something to achieve it, breakthroughs will happen.
there will be a breakthrough.
however, before the breakthrough can be achieved, there need to be a couple of important ingredients: strategy, planning, desperation, determination. with a proper planning and a proper strategy, a person who is desperate and determined enough will achieve whatever he has set his eyes on.
Tags: breakthrough, challenge, desperate, determined, planning, strategy, xkcd