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this is one of the times where i am actually envious of those who have strong ties with friends. i used to think that not having friends isn’t really a problem. i mean look at me. what friends do i have? not much really. i don’t need many. i just need real good ones.
the way things are going though… i’m actually wishing i have more acquaintances. i’m actually wishing my network was larger. and i actually regret the fact that i’m not much more sociable.
i don’t have much people i could call to set appointments with. no appointments means no activities and no activities means i am not going to be closing any cases any time soon. and that sort of sucks. i’m also not very good with building rapport with my cold market. while my manager is very good at follow ups, i’m not. and it sucks a lot.
anyway, i don’t intend to rant about my friends or the lack of them. i admit i suck at building ties. so it’s not really their problem. just needed to vent my frustration. anyways, i trust God has a way of making things come together. i just wish clients would drop from the sky for now.
sounds like some sort of elevator or a roller coaster huh? one minute up, the next, it’s down. but that’s exactly how my morale and my feelings have been for the past 3 days.
today’s actually the third day of the road show. still no closings from this roadshow as yet. it’s not at all good. to join this roadshow, one has to pay a rental fee of S$250. to be attending this roadshow and not closing a single case from it is no better than just going elsewhere to canvass.
had a lot to write. however, after writing up a couple of drafts, decided that i’d only be throwing myself a pity party. i don’t need self-pity. i need cases to be closed. i will do better tomorrow. and i really had better done so. i need to recoup everything i had spent so far.
but i do know when enough is enough. i’m the kind of guy who will trust everyone. unless of course i am proven wrong and that you’re not someone i can trust. likewise, i often try to see the good in people. the day i give up… it’s a sad day indeed. i’m also not the kind of guy who’s easily angered. although these days, many people have been getting on my nerves.
so why such a title? no reason i guess. just wanted to vent something out. just common sense though that if you depend on someone for something, do not piss them off. it’s like, hey if i am the one who’s always driving you from places to places, don’t make comments like “whoa you suck at driving” or shit like that. it’s not just fucking rude, it also makes me not want to drive you around.
now, i’m not saying i can drive. but something similar happened. i am not going to repeat what it is. unless of course i get pissed off mighty bad again.
anyway, yesterday’s roadshow was good. tiring. but good. personal breakthrough in the number of approaches i made. now i need to up the number of my sitdowns and leads. i really need to close cases this week.
one of the reasons i’m thankful i’m in this industry is because it reveals our friends’ true colours. it shows you exactly what kind of people they are.
what kind of friend are you? are you the fair weather friend? only here when things are smooth sailing? or are you instead the shelter when the storm is overhead?
the reason i am posting this is because i want to highlight some stuffs. even though i am in this industry, you DO NOT have to buy from me. i will of course be asking you if you’d like to buy. this is NOT because you are a business opportunity but BECAUSE you are my friend. i believe that the product i have is good for you and that you will benefit from it and THAT IS WHY I AM TRYING TO SELL IT TO YOU. nothing else.
if however, you feel the need to avoid me just so that you don’t have to buy from me… you don’t know me at all and you probably don’t think i am a friend. in that case, go. i don’t need a friend like you too. and i don’t need you. you however will need me. or my products in any case. because to be honest with you, if you tell me not to ask you to buy, i will not. i will however, bring it up sometime in the future but not always. and i will only bring it up out of concern. not because i want to make a sale.
with that said, i feel good. i have finally gotten things off my chest. but i do feel a bit disappointed that someone i knew from polytechnic is avoiding me because of this. i mean, i know some people will avoid me. they don’t know me. so it’s alright. but this person? it’s sad in a way. but like i mentioned in a previous post… when they need help in future… i will tell them that i am sorry but i can no longer help. and all the more i will feel sorry for them.
i’m tired. i’m tired of things. seriously. all i want to do now is just crawl into a cool, dark cave and stay there.
one of the stuffs on my mind is that fact that there are people who are irresponsible. firstly, i’d like to rant about my mum’s friend. this woman does not believe in insurance. i was hoping that there might be some legitimate reasons for it. that way at least i could educate her or allay her fears and all that. turned out the story isn’t what i thought it would be.
she claimed she’s lost money in insurance before. i was thinking, unless it’s some form of investments, there really shouldn’t be anyway a person would lose money right? maybe she was unable to claim anything? but no. the reason was simple. her husband has many friends in the insurance business. so he’d go and support them. and when they resign, he’d surrender the policy. what a fucking dumb thing to do. so now, according to her, she no longer believes in insurance. hello? that’s like one of the dumbest thing i have ever heard! so just because of this, she’s willing to take a chance that nothing will happen to her or her husband or her child?
another of my mum’s friend claims that her sister is currently suffering from cancer and she couldn’t make a claim. i have no other information so i don’t know what’s the story. all i can hope for is my mum would at least let her friend know i may be able to help find out more.
and then, there are other people. these people know that they don’t have money. so they shy away from any insurance or savings plan. but can’t they tell that the whole point is to help them? they jolly well know that life right now is hard. they can’t afford a S$50 or a S$70 savings plan. however, they can afford the latest PSP, the latest handphones, etc. i tell them that it’s only S$50 or S$70 a month and they balk at it. i tell them the cheapest we have is S$30 which at least covers accidents and they cringe. they said they’re stretched out and even that additional $1 a day is too tight.
tell me. if you’re in that situation and you get saddled with hospitals bills, how the fuck are you even going to survive? i am seriously at a lost for words. all the fucking cheapos can’t afford at least a S$30 a month accident plan but they can afford a new PSP, a new handphone… i wish i could be there on the day they get cancer to say “i told you so.”
i’d honestly love to have a chance to gloat at them and point fingers and laugh even more. for they are nothing but fools. i am offering them a chance to rise above the mud they are stuck in and they refuse…
okay. now i am just bitter.
there’s this guy i spoke to 2 weeks ago. he’s a dispatch rider. he told me he’s 23 years old and that he wants to get married by 30. that’s 7 years away. he’s got no savings at all. no accident insurance as well. i proposed a S$70 savings plan and he said he’ll take it. he signed on the dotted lines and i thought all was fine. then he told me that his pay only arrives on the 22nd and that he has no cash to pay for the first payment.
ever since then, i can never seem to contact him. his number is real. no doubt about it. he picked up and answer my call a few days ago. after that, he refused to pick up my calls.
like i mentioned, i’m offering people a way out of their circumstances. it seems they just love the mud they are in. it’s always easier to wallow in self-pity than to climb out of the rut. i should know. i’ve been there.
heck. even now, some days i just want to crawl somewhere quiet and throw pity parties for myself. like what i currently feel like doing. so, sue me.
people are just mouthing platitudes. “oh you can do it.” “oh ganbate!” “just try harder!” “i’m sure you can find someone!”
yes yes yes. it all sounds so bloody simple. and probably for some, it is. and why? probably because they have got the charms and all that? or maybe, they know people who are supportive as well as generous with the wallets?
hey. i have supportive friends. not complaining there. but even if you have supportive friends, in the end, it all boils down to them either buying from you or not. do i regret that i don’t have a larger network? probably. but then again, it doesn’t matter if i have a large network if at the end of the day, i still don’t have any sales.
i appreciate that fact that people are encouraging me. i do appreciate it. but the thing is, it’s pretty easy to just say something. it’s really easy to tell someone “you can do it!” but instead of just saying, why don’t someone start doing something?
i easily have 20 people telling me “you can do it! you surely will be able to find someone” when none of them are even offering to help. i know some of them really can’t help out. it’s okay. but some others are just mouthing platitudes. and that’s what irks me. it’s so bloody easy to say those stuffs but in the end, the one not getting paid is not them. i don’t even know if i will be getting paid. at least if i was on full commission, i know if i don’t work, i won’t get paid. but now? urgh.
the iPhone is being launched in Singapore on the 22nd of August by Singtel. Singtel has provided new plans tailored for the iPhone but guess what? the plans aren’t that great.
here’s some comparisons of the price plans.
the iFlexi Value has free incoming voice calls. it also has 200mins of free outgoing calls and 500 free sms. it also has 1GB of free data and all day free incoming calls. with this plan, an 8GB iPhone will cost $348 and the 16GB will cost $508. the price plan will cost $56 a month.
on the other hand, the iTwo value has 300mins free outgoing calls, free incoming calls all day and 500 sms. it doesn’t have a data plan and it costs $48.15 a month. the iPhone prices cost the same as on the iFlexi Value plan. however, by adding a Broadband on Mobile 1000 plan, i will add a 50GB data plan to the iTwo Value for only a further $22.42 a month. that will make the total bundle cost $70.50. however, since new signups for the broadband mobile has a 30% discount for the first year, the first year total per month is only about $61.
i’ll be taking the iTwo value with the broadband on mobile 1000. more value for money as i am sure i will use alot of the data. GPS maps and IM on the go. not to mention youtube while on the train?
just something i’d like to share. i hate it when i give out a cheery greeting via msn or any IM for that matter and the person cannot give me back a proper greeting. why’s that i wonder? too stuck up? the world fucking owes you something? or did i inadvertently pissed you off by saying hi?
if it’s the latter, okay. i apologise.
if it’s not, go fuck yourself. not the first time i receive that kind of response for you. and i’m the sort who will be civil the first time round and i will tell you that it bothers me. one more time it happens, sorry. i don’t give a fuck if you’re pissed with someone else or what.
it’s just courtesy. i say ‘hi’, all i expect is a ‘hi’ back. and then you can tell me you are pissed or whatever and if you don’t feel like talking, just let me know. this is fucking basic courtesy.
heh.
i’ve been here in SGH since 11.30am. when i arrived, a staff nurse told me my bro had already been wheeled to the OT since 11.15am. decided to wait for him outside his ward as the OT’s waiting room was kind of crowded. anyway, we were told the procedure would take at most 2 hours – about 45mins for each lung.
i had to rush off at 4pm as i have tutorial at 4.30pm at Fuji Xerox Tower. after my tutorial, which ended at 6.30pm, i rushed straight back to SGH. guess what? he’s still not yet out. waited with my mum for awhile before i grew suspicious. my brother’s been inside the OT since 11.15am and he’s not out yet at 6.30pm?
so i went to check with the staff nurse and was told to check in the CTSICU room where he would be sent to for recovery after surgery. when i arrived in the CTSICU, the nurse on duty told me that there’s no such person by that name in the room. they then checked the system and told me that according to the computer, my brother is in his ward.
something’s wrong right? the people from the ward told me he’s in the CTSICU while the people from the CTSICU told me he’s in the ward. to cut the long story short, we managed to locate him after we went back and spoke to the ward nurse. turned out that my brother was still in the OT. seriously, some accountability has to be there. how can one part of the hospital not know what’s going on from the other part?
the only good thing i can say is that since my mum’s an SGH staff, her staff card’s really pretty useful. we could get through alot of stuffs using my mum’s card. but think about other patients and their relatives who aren’t staff members?
it’s so bloody frustrating not knowing where your loved one is. the ward tells you he’s in some CTSICU while the CTSICU tells you he isn’t and that he’s in the ward when all along, he’s actually still in the OT.
heh. good news is that he’s okay although he’s in extreme pain. going down to SGH again to visit him tomorrow before my next tutorial lesson.
how do you know if you’re an ass? when it’s raining heavily and you purposely drive over puddles along a curb near a bus top.
yes. i was fucking drenched. thank you very much.
it’s weird. each time we chat online or even on the phone, the topic would somehow be about him. i’m not joking. and i’m seriously sick and tired of it. look. i’m not even remotely jealous or anything. just thought i’d get that clear first. i’m not jealous that you like him. i don’t really give a damn whether or not you like him.
however, thing is, you told me he found out you like him and that he told you he doesn’t feel the same. and then you also mention that he flies your airplane.
anyway, what i’m trying to say is… please just don’t talk about him? i’m sick and tired of it. that’s why lately whenever the topic gets to him, i just go “…” and then i close the window. how would you feel if every time i chat with you i’m talking about some other girl? and that everytime i talk about that girl, i’m bitching about how she doesn’t like me or how she stood me up or how much i like her or about every single fucking time i go out with her or things like that?
look. just for the record, if he said something to hurt you or he dumps you or whatnot, yes. i’m here to listen. but for fuck’s sake. please don’t let him be the only thing we talk about? i kind of missed the times we just crap about everything under the sun. honest. i missed how we’d be laughing at silly stuffs i do.
gosh. now i’m starting to sound like i’m jealous. let me reiterate. i am not fucking jealous. it’s just that you’re really sounding a lot like a lovesick puppy whenever you talk about him. serious. it gets so that i don’t really have much to say. like for example, my last message to you on msn. ignts. you know what that meant? i‘ve got nothing to say.
edit: oh. and just for the record? i’m not terribly impressed with him after all you have said. he doesn’t call you when he said he will. he stood you up just because he felt sleepy or something… how although he knows you like him, he says he likes someone else. oh. and just before he said he liked someone else, he actually told you that you may not like what he’s going to say. i mean for fuck’s sake. why would he even say it then? it’s not like you asked him if he liked someone else or that he’s getting attached to that girl or what fuck nonsense right? if i’m not wrong, you told me he just said that out of the blue. i mean… what? who the fuck just goes and tell someone who likes him or her that “hey. i’ve got something to tell you. not too sure if you’d like to hear it or not. oh what the hell. you know that girl/guy? i kind of like him.”
i don’t know. it’s just me probably. but i don’t like him. and therefore, i don’t want to hear anything about him.
there. i’ve said my piece. now i’m going back to my games.
i was slated to attend an ICT on 24th Dec till 30th Dec 2007. that would seriously spoil whatever christmas cheer i have left. as i mentioned before, this december, my parents would be going back to the philippines for a vacation. they’ll be bringing along my 2 younger brothers with them, leaving only myself and Michael behind as we both had just started on our new jobs.
now with me having to attend ICT…
anyways, i decided to apply for deferment as it was within the first 3 months of a new employment and according to the mindef website, i am eligible to apply for a deferment. i spoke with an officer on the personnel department of my SCDF division and she too confirmed that i can apply for a deferment. all i need to do was just fax in the application, the SAF100 and also a letter with the company letterhead stating the date on which i start work.
faxed the documents on the 16th of November. i called up about a week or so later on 27th of Nov and they said they only received the documents on the 22nd of Nov and that they’d need at least 2 weeks for it to be processed. i called again on the 10th of Dec and guess what? my dear officer said she just received it and that there wasn’t a company letter accompany the SAF100.
some administrative balls up… now i’m not too sure i could even enjoy my christmas if i have to go for ICT…
if you are going to organize any outings/events… please be clear about one thing. i’m fucking intolerant of organizers being late. if you’re going to be more than 5 mins late, please have the fucking decency to inform the people who are attending the outing/event. if you are going to be late for more than half an hour, i’m leaving.
was supposed to meet the guys for dinner earlier. S smsed me yesterday to meet at 5pm at Orchard. at 4.23pm this afternoon, he smsed saying to meet at 5pm at Somerset instead. i had no problems with that change. at 5pm at Somerset however, it was only me and D who was there. turned out S was late while the rest were somehow meeting up at Orchard before heading down to Somerset.
so guys. enlighten me. what gives? why are the majority meeting at Orchard instead? i mean, yeah it’s actually no big deal for some people to meet up first at Orchard but hello? me and D were at Somerset at 5pm while you guys took your own sweet time? for fuck’s sake… it’s like my time isn’t as important as yours or something…
edit: okay. the last time an organiser was late was the time when R was late for the claypot rice thingy. that one couldn’t be helped and i understood it cause he had to do OT. although in the end, R gave us a treat too.
i never did liked last minute outings and i never will. if you didn’t know by now, i have never gone out with you guys on last minute outings unless it was something i’m really really interested in and don’t mind all the hassle of last minute preparations.
i don’t give a fuck whether or not you believe me about yesterday’s outing. i was asked a day before whether or not i’m free to meet up for dinner. although the movie may be a last minute decision, i was already ‘prepared’ to go out to meet up for dinner.
so don’t you give me that fucking tone of voice on the phone. and even if yesterday was a last minute thing, i did want to catch the show. a pity the show sucked but yes. i wanted to catch it bad enough that i wouldn’t mind even if it’s last minute. i hate to repeat myself but it isn’t the first time you ask me if i want to come out at the last minute.
i’m sick of having to repeat myself. i hate last minute decisions and appointments. if it’s nothing life threatening or nothing extremely important, or if it’s not truly necessary for me to be there… don’t ask me out at the last minute. i don’t care. i fucking hate last minute stuffs. once more let me repeat myself. I FUCKING HATE LAST MINUTE STUFFS.
just got the results for my Design Project. got a C+. can’t say i didn’t expect it. i did expect to do better but with my group mates being the way they were, i got my grades pulled down by them. upset? not really. resigned? yes. i mean, during the middle part of the semester, i already knew i wasn’t going to get the A i was aiming for. not entirely my group mate’s fault. partly my fault for sticking with them even though i knew they suck.
gosh. because of this C+, i only got a GPA of 2.6 and man… it’s seriously not what i was hoping to get. ah fuck. anyway, i guess it’s over. planning to take my SAT soon if i got get around to studying for it. seriously got demoralised by this C+.